another she, nys

She sms me, she said that her sister bully her. After that her brother also bully her. She angry while she hurting . Angry because she angry them , hurt because she doesn't know why them want bully her. She said she wants to cry but in the end she doesn't . She cries , I will cry more , she hurt i will get more hurts than her. I hope i can help her carry all of her tear , don let her eyes look so tired. I told her ,if she wants , my shoulder always wide open for her , I will holding her , don let her fall down . Until now we still sms , she say dunno want accept me or not, inside my heart i really want her to accept . But how we can continue this relationship . Some more i think her school still got many guys that better than me. nys i love oyu

A dream day

Today after basketball , i went to asiba with aaron , joel , wye ming . having breakfast while talking pokemon. We saw jason chan having breakfast alone . I need to walk back home TT , because brother use car so mother cant fetch me . How cruel TT . Some how i stomach pain . After bath i slept. During my dream , i dream the sabah trip which with ptdd friends . I dream i and her and one more guy but i cant remenber who is him. I just can remenber was i held her hand. Just like the real during sabah trip. I woke up because i dream until i held her hand. I dunno why . she always give me a feeling that she not violent and fierce , even the others say indeed . On my way, she violent and fierce maybe she wants to protects herself and protects her friends and family. She bite me, i feel like it, dunno why? Am i insane , stupid , idiot or retarded , or i .... ... I cant find the answer , or i already got the answer .

should i forget the girl i like so many years?

I always wish i could often see her. But i have not ideas, how can i cant forget her . During holidays , we seldom sms . Why ?? I just want to sms with her even cant see her . My heart lost already . since that day i like you. But you just dunno . I cant expose my feeling, because it's too much . Your smile , cost everything. You asked me before who the one i love so long. The answer is you. If i tell you, i afraid you avoid me forever. And now, i miss everything about you. Until now , your smile still inside my mind .

Finish pmr!!!!!!!!!!!!11

Today was a nice day . Pmr finished . Michelle wong, i really want to walk and talk with you. Afternoon went matahari club house with Joel. Fiona and her friends were there. I and joel played gym and meet Wang Han and Aaron Tan. Next we and Jason Tan went to Wang Han house bath , then went fiona house .Finally i played basketball ^^ damn nice

A confused heart

Since that day you misunderstand me, you had changed. You do not want to talk with me . You jsut avoid me far apart. It cause my heart in a cold , lonely with a broken heart. I have no idea . When i step by step closer and closer , you walk farther and farther . At Friday night, we saw each others. It is a good time to see you. I can't stand a single movements . When i saw you, my heart keep tell me ' don nervous' . When i sit with you, you walk a way. When i asked why you moody. You answered me ' nothing, go talk with your friend. I tried my best to know you more. You just like a door, does not let me go in. You want know why i went out after dinner? It 's i do not want to disturb you to talk with your friends. Others reason is , i feel i just your friend. Although it make me feel guilty , because can't want you trust me. But i still love you. I hope your answer same with me. However , i also feel our distance far , far away. I always think is it my fault or, we haven prepare to together? Hope someone can give me the answer

went to eat kfc with aunts and uncle and my cutiest cousin

In the morning , what a beauty day for me. I went the bills . What the hell , it need more 20 sen. I have ruched to my home and brought 20 sen to post office man. That is my time to play computer hehehe. When tuition time, i had talked with her . She seemed likes doesn't want to talk with me. I really trust you, i need you to care me, because i can feel you are love me. Furthermore you are the girl i really love deepest in my life. Why you don't belief me . I really felt that i am useless in this world . Hope after pmr we can stick together . My girl always loved by me , MW

baby i'm so sorry

whatever you say , your words always will be trusted by my mind. I don't want answer at that time because i don't want hurt either one side .When you say you don't want care me, my heart is broken . I feel that you just don't trust me. I very sad . I just can place the blame on myself. Who can trust? Even you also don't trust me, how i live in this world .

Life without you

when i looking at you , i will feel i am so lucky . You are the girl i need the whole time, can't stand my emotion when i knew we can't chat because of pmr. After pmr i hope you can be with me , always , and forever. I want to see you everyday. Can we make it? It is one of my plan after pmr's life. I hope you can find a topic to chat with me, even is a simple question. M i love you

when i look at you.

when i look at you
i found my way home.
When i look at you
i can't sleep anymore,
just want to be with you.
When i look at you
my heart is falling apart.
When i look at you
i know you are my angle.


Please you believe it ,
i truly madly deeply
loving you

i hope you can get your happiness

My broken heart like a wave
My shaken heart like wind
It had been fact.
That day
I sigh deeply
as if
a ground
is going to cave in.
What is it about the guy
that next to you?
Did you fall in love with him?
I have no regrets
from loving you.
Oh my girl
i cried, cried
you're my all
say goodbye.
If we pass by each other on the street
can you pretend you do not know me?
Always happy with him

It's end

It's end

since you with him.
It's end
when 28 of jun 2010.
It's end
when i knew it and pretend like a fool.

What if i together with a girl that not like me. It no point. I'm laughing myself. Although ....... i be played, i still hope you happy

practice for annuel dinner

today morning went to bukit rimau there played match. The first match we lose but it ok. We against canal garden. It a tough match for us. After that i went to tuition. Tired!!!!! Around 4 pm jason tan sms to me asked for come practice . It was fun time when at his house!! gan me jason and one more i forget his name . Sorry. Then we went to ptdd2. It was panic man .T_T but after that we went to smc to drink. shemun and glen went too ^^

alex birthday's party

In the morning i , joel , kevin, aaron yeap, justin, and many people were played at opposite of Mc donald. Around 3 pm went to alex's house . It fun and excited man. first time i can stand by girl touch around 6 minute man ^^

sunway with willson, lee and alex

today morning having breakfast saw wye ming. After that we went to ptdd . after 1hour i went to sunway. We played a lot. Although tired , but it's fun. At night went to pizza hut with grandpa, uncle and aunt . hahah

I got a new phone ^^

wor i damn happy today because i got a new phone . Actually was brought from yesterday de^^.Don't know why, she doesn't wants to chat with me anymore. What i did to you ?

A rest day before exam

WALAU today i automatic woke up at 5 am le. My brain lost functions. Then studied a while, go ate breakfast with family. That i went to bukit rimau played basketball and swim. Girls always late. We having a god time ^^ it fun and nice. Tiffany sit on me in swimming pool. i just stand , because i scare girls. Suddenly she fold down , i just help her. And i damn panic la.

No mood

today , she not mood at all. Whatever i say, she just likes avoids it . When i tuition, i saw she was with the guy again. What i jealous feeling. I'm not angry, i just blame myself . Why don't take your heart carefully . Nowadays i'm regret. Suddenly you said sorry but i don't the reason why you day sorry. Why u don't tell me straight away .

My feeling

One day wrote two things. My world being meaningless . My world being freeze . My world being lost a key which opened my heart. What if i getting stronger but without someone to support me. What if i getting weaker but not one will console . What if i lost my love and not she does't cares about me anymore. What i did ? DID i do something that hurt u ? If didn't why the guilt come toward to me. Mun jun and Jason now are not single, instead i going to be it .Although this is meaningless for you, but it gave me a lesson to learn about, trust myself. From now once, i won't forget what you had did from me since you with me

Since that day you with him

Since that day you with him walked together, i had a feeling that you will leave me. Why i such as fool . Why i can't hold this relationship . I 'm found out, i am the only one to cause you to avoid me. So i am a murder of this relationship , since that day i asked you .Why i always unlucky . Is that me think too much of it? or it's fact. I want to know the answer from you. If leaving hope you and him can delighted

st john's exam

today i woke up early in the morning to study the whole note. but i'm to panic. Who can save me !!!! I 'm too tired now. I need rest . We reached HQ, we study hard. When i going to exam i hope can pass. Thank god i pass. After exam , i went to training . It tired T_T

normal day

As usual , went to school and came back from school. Nothing special . The only sepcial was i went to played basketball. haha quiet nice wor. It tired but i happy ^^

joggong n swiming

today morning after breakfast , i crushed to the jogging place. I jog with seng sin . He jog and walk sometimes but i whole distance were jogging . How pity .After that we went to waimun house with yiting , shemun, glen. We ordered pizza . WOR SO COOL MAN . It nice le. After that we went to swim. Only i and seng sin. Gan phone spoil, brought haven got 24 hours .

Dunia Didik match at doritis

Today i woke up at 6.40 because kevin called me. I suppose wake up at 6.15 but my alarm set at 7, luck he called me if not i die lo. We play until damn funny le. hahahha. I wang han , yi zhe and hou zhe went to smc ate .

My second summer

5th of apr
Today i am the one hundred and one's luck person . Today i damn happy because can with her. She totally change my life from now once.

6th apr
Don't know why she avoid me. she like don't want chat. maybe she not comfortable . I happy also. I cant stand today, because i don't know what i can chat with her.

cooking in school

today i, sohanjit, ammelina, cheryn, and got one guy name i don't know how to write his name but in our class , we in one team. it quite fun le. yi ting, joan, leng, kah yeh, wang han one team. we helped each other. After this we went to smc to ate . she went back house so early T_T i want asked wang han to take her picture but it too late . WHY!!!!!!!!!!!! I don't know what i am doing . Tonight i went to pizza hut with wang han and sohanjit. We ate finish then went to mc donald there drink and talked . It quite fun le

i can use my computer liao

27 mac
i just came back from school and straight away go to tuition then went to shemun house practise. damn tired le. I , kevin , and the others team mates won the school match. We got no 2 .

I DID BIG MISTAKEN IN MY LIFE!!!!

Today went to school and duty. when my school team fight with star, my brother also is school team but didn't play. After that i suppose can go back home de but sok ching asked me to stay . haiz. That went to training. I MADE BIG MISTAKEN . Coach want i , kevin, adrian(kevin's youngest brother) play match with the girls. Coach want we don't let the girls score so i scare him will punish kevin or his brother so i play serious.I touched girls, oh my god but for kevin them , so must play serious . And one of them told me i played damn rude. I'M SO SORRY TO YOU ALL. Now i still scare le. i scare them will angry . why i must play so rude de le . how stupid am i .

A match that cause me hurt

Today i am the first person that reached the court after that martin reached . Slowly my team mates all peoples were reached. Started we ok ok , but when i injured , joel like tidak puas hati . Chill man . After the game we went to eat in mc donald ^^ .

sunway with siong sing

i woke up around 7 and ready to prepared go sunway. Lee follow my car went to. Today we made a lot of new friends le. We dance and played only. What a bored plan . I bought a gift for her, don't know when want to give her le. T.T WE sit taxi come back just now, damn tired le

a chilly day

Today after exam , we hope it have a summer day coming, but when pn chan passed the english exam papers, she got the highest marks in class . Instead i worried was wang han. Wang han don't sad man, you can do it next time. when measure high she don't want let me know. I keep waiting you can find me back to your heart, but it just a dream in my mind , it won't happen anymore because in your world maybe i already gone

exam

9 march
Exam came, i did't study at all. I hope all my subject can get 60++ . mei ling sit beside me , but the most luck one is wang han . heheh wang han you know my mean right , mei ling also sit beside wang han . hahaha joking joking.


10 march
today i asked her about how was the exam, her answer " dunno " . The question that i ask , she answer dunno . Never mind maybe she really dunno .

i still love her

What you did to me not longer it hurt me or make me sad, i still will love you. Maybe i did something , it make you to decide to leave me. I wont make this mistake again , i willing change for you . I loss you one time, i wont let you go second time in my life. If you don't trust me, i will show you , how regret that i loss you . Please give me change . That day i whole day sad . So please give me a change

A match in bukit rimau

today i woke up early for prepare the match. We waited for the match until around 4 hours and we lose because the team that we match got people is 16 years old . haiz after the match i , yi zhe and wang han suppose to have a lunch but wang han's team haven match with the other so cant leave , that i and yi zhe went to mama there. After that we went to 7-11 brought drinks . finally went to mich's house practice . In her house we just played only. Today damn tired

spot day

what the hell, today 5 o'clock woke up and get ready go to school . T_T reached the school we still need to kawal kaki le. The bus so late 7++ only reach . Inside the bus was so crowed , so many people inside the bus le. While we reached to stadium , it is amazing man . First time went to the stadium le. After a few minute we started kawal kaki . So hot man , and got peoples fainted . Oh my god . We need to save peoples le T_T . Why suddenly so many people muscle cramp de . Especially girls , that why i asked joey to save them . it too tired T_T

just write this for fun

When the sky is just left the star
I felt lonely in this world
When the sun rise up everyday
I miss you every single second.
My happiness is not important anymore
Since i with you , chat with you
My sadness is not important anymore
Since i lost you , not dare to chat with you
I hope i can forget you and started a new life
But it can't , still need time to recover , maybe
I hope i can go back to be friend with you .
Why today so silent in my world?
Why the flower seem like no power ?
Why you want to end this relationship?
Maybe i not good ?
Maybe you want to change you life ?
Everyday i like a fool pretend happy
Everyday i cant take out my sight of you
Everyday hope can with you again
But it's over
Hope you can happy
Hope you can find a better man

went sunway

i woke up early went out with parent for tonight party. After that i bath and ready to go sunway. Omg the shirt is too small for me T_T. Gay came that started to go sunway. We reach that go play game for waiting shemun , jie jie they come. When we meet we went to dance and many thing. Fisrt they meet us at the RK then we played game and blar blar . We went to blowing , i play until hand pain T_T .They meet their old school's friend , we went papa rich ate. I forget pay. Sorry i will pay back de. Today she found me chat, i really feel happy^^, but.... haiz something could be happen

new year party

today i went to siong sing ' house because i am invited for the party ^^ very happy le . So many people went it , zhe yang , yee kian , wei soon, kah yen , rachel and some more one girl that i don't know . This new year , does she happy ??

new year's life 2010

13 feb
Today i woke up early to help my parent . That we went back my hometown sekinchan . On the road nothing happen but suddenly she sms to me. when 12 am , my cousin all became a crazy monkey jump here jump there including me ^^ .

14 feb
today is valentine's day , but i damn boring. Nothing happen and just lay with my cousin

12 feb 2010

in my class, i and my friend emo because of something happen. Sohanjit damn sad , that i damn emo , emo untill i don't want to chat with the other person .

11 feb 2010

4 more days is valentine's day, i just one people again. Wang han tomorrow won't go school because balik kampung, you must buy soething for me le . That tomorrow will be boring because wang han is not school T_T. I wanted to give her chocolate , but i scare she won't accept. Joshua naught naught ah, want couple with cheryn also must tell us de, we will lend a hands to you hehehe. Now joshua spending his valentine's day with her lo , maybe. I hope her happy

9 feb 2010

i 'm sick T_T so can't go tuition le. Haiz at school just slept and wake up do teacher's work haiz. I looking at her, she seem like very boring but i not dare to chat with her . Wang han naught naught ah wrote something to her , thank mei ling for took the paper . thank mei ling

8 feb 2010

today suddenly a girl go in my class, was her. She study in my class, i suddenly high and wang han beat me , i can't take my sigh out of her. Why? She said my classmates very friendly , i really happy but ........ haiz i still..... her .How to forget her

7 feb 2010

today i , wang han and our boss, edward tan went to sunway pyramid to buy thing .I became wang han's designer, free of charge . we brought same type of shoes ,damn funny le. Wang han need to ask maybank to borrow money lo, because he bought 450 go leave 100 only, oh my god. Some more he needed to buy new phone. miss the girl that i liked

6 Feb 2010

today i saw her, she quite happy .I still need time T_T. I just hope you can forever happy. I want to see her, but my heart will pain , because i useless.

3 feb 2010

today i emo. but why my friend follow me also? so i must act like normal be gay, gay childish to make they happy again. I don't want they sad because of me.

2 feb 2010

I was damn sad that day. Why the moon can't just stay at the sky? Why the bird fly alone forever? why that day i will feel cold and sad? Why that day you .......... maybe i am good so you want to leave me. I won't angry you, because i ..... you. hope you happy forever and forget me .

30 januari

I went to wang han's house to play basketball but wang han 's ball is borrowed by his friend . Kasihan ,so around 7 something i go his house waiting him to change his cloth and then go club. I cant stand to see her :). Finally she came , damn panic that time. I become speechless . Hehehe. Whatever i asked her, she just answered it don't . Maybe she shy . I always wanted to make her laugh , but how ???? i am so useless

just a while only

today my beruniform got practice , so i need to stay back.the practice started at 12.30 but i came late because had a lunch with wang ham the muscular guy . don't know why today i damn panic, maybe i can't stand to see her. haiz but my mother can't fetch because her hand broke , so i walked to tuition. i ran as fast as i can, but i just can see her a while because her transport came . WHY WHY T.T haiz

boring !!!!!!

today as normal ,went to school n came back to school. nothing different , hope 2moro i can see her. hope she can chat with me

i saw her

today i jogging to play basketball because my mother cant fetch her hand broke, n the another reason is i want to see her......>< crazy right ?? when her finished her tuition, i crushed to the dd there, finally i saw her . but this happiness just for a while , her transpot came n her need to go back T.T haiz

omg

yesterday my mother hand broke, so today i need to wake up early to clean my house . but i cant make it ....... too tired >< , miss her n i sms to her but she did't reply ...... i will wait u de

i missing her

today 24/1/2010 ijust on 9 for see whether she got on 9 or not . damn sad bcoz cant see she n if i sms with her , it too expensive T_T