i am wearing a happy mask

After two days i asked you , i lost my confidence to talk with you . When i am with friends i just smile , after that i am a lost puppy. My feeling now is so despair . Really want to forget you ???

i shouldn't ask her

Today midnight i called her , i am ready to ask her do i has a chance to together with her .  I called her around 12 something . After that i told her that i has a question but dunno should ask or not , so i told her i will sms her about the question now . I sms her , about i got chance or not . I'm wait , wait , wait , i sms her . I feel that she wants to avoid me TT it's so sad . 

i should not ask you 

now i am regretting 

i really love her 

i really really so hurt and sad 

i should forget you early 

but 

you are so hard to forget 

my heart now 

not bleeding 

not crying 

but is in pieces 

i love you nys 

i swear